september-december 2024, still updating.
links to note collections are reverse chronological, notes themselves are chronological.
cigarette in hand and ammunition in mouth
church jeans vs work jeans
make no mistake, there is a difference between a parlor trick and true blue magic. I will remember this til the day I die.
its meaning was lost before records began
first you had me as a friend, and you had me up against the piano with the broken teeth
elegant full-body frisson
I met you in the rain on the last day of 1972
Discovering there’s nothing so bad about Phoenix, MD that moving 300 miles away can’t fix
Yes, you’re very smart, now shut up.
eye makeup messy like mine and espresso-black madwoman eyes not much like mine at all.
Hello, are you alone on purpose
currently, the marks on my stomach are:
-scrape from impaling myself on a tree branch in the dark last night
-small white cigarette burn above scrape drew gave me at chaos computer
-pain star tattoo from edi
-strawberry birthmark on ribs
-various bruises and minor scars
I know their style, they know mine
my traction-less docs have taken me to places many of you wouldn’t go without a cigarette
All alone in space and time
There’s nothing here but what here’s mine
Something borrowed, something blue
Every me and every you
natural blood-stained blond
And as the tightened brakes took hold, there swelled
A sense of falling, like an arrow-shower
Sent out of sight, somewhere becoming rain.
Death abolishes us, but it also individualizes us
= you are what you do with your time
the term is found in the name of a ship and in the nickname of a poet.
A lyric like ’Summer, I love you I love you I love you’ looks dumb when written out,” Sheppard said. ”But what we were trying to communicate was the feeling of being free of school obligations. Of it not being dark at four in the afternoon. Of the adventures that come along with going to shows four out of the seven nights a week- hopping a fence at a country club, skinny dipping with 30 of your friends, driving to the all-night diner in North Little Rock to eat corn fritters and drink a milkshake, and then sneaking back into your house at three in the morning.
While heading south on I-95, Everyone Asked About You encountered another group of weird kids in a van. ”They pulled up next to us and a guy held up a notebook in the window that said, ’let’s be enemies,’” Sheppard recalled. ”We held up a sign that said, ’OK,’ at which point they started firing bottle rockets at us.” Beachwood responded with a slice of cake that covered their opponent’s windshield.
Don’t turn your back on the body
with this state of the world, we have so much to be doing drugs about.
the only safe sex is ”if one person jerks off at one end of a room and someone else jerks off at the other, both trying to hit the same spot in the middle of the floor.”
the stars are really going at it tonight
live free & ride
We can meet his folly,
But from his virtues must be runaways.
Circus walk
Bliss strings
you’re my first instinct
but the aviary stained glass windows will not build themselves...
The stillness of a showdown.
The next time you consider killing yourself, think of entropy
Forgive me
it was illegal
so corrupt
but so super
once you say something true it’s hard to ever take it back
That’s the biggest appeal until the lights dim
o kill kill kill kill kill
those
who advertise you
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