September-December 2025, still updating.
You stop in a pizza shop to buy water, and the only other customer is a boy about your age doing the same thing for the same reason. You make blue-to-green eye contact as you leave. The studio is kind of far from your apartment, but you like the separation of church and state. It’s a Greek neighborhood and you have to walk by a big sign with a name very close to someone else’s, both from one of the first verbs you learned the year you studied Ancient Greek. Something something nominative determinism. Your time slot isn’t for half an hour, you get coffee with L and H and drink it standing under the awning. ”Outside the natural world was enjoying a moment of total strength.” The rain rushes against your back like the tide. You’re wearing a blue USA tank from the Target little boys’ section and jean shorts. Practice is good and you do a fun dual vocals thing with H. Yours needs work but you located where you should start getting intense. You need to figure out what lyrics to change. Some would say not to change any. You rip out a blank page from your passport for H to write down a song structure in liquid eyeliner on the porch.
parallel lines meet at infinity
At one time I experimentally ruined my life repeating the hypothesis ”If it can be destroyed by the truth, it deserves to be destroyed by the truth.” Whose truth? How much of it? I know perfectly well there are sentences that split timelines.
[Silence.] I heard you singing.
I’m terrified that we are doomed to never care about anyone more than the people who hurt us. I know this isn’t true, but it’s true sometimes. Hate is to love what anger is to sadness. I call it by its proper name.
On the N train to Queens. Above ground. It looks like thunder and you are carrying an unusually heavy electric bass from 1986 but your spirit is good. You are hopeful about a song in your head. You did not exactly sleep last night, but neither did the guitarist. It’s 2:57 when the rain drops hard and it takes thirty seconds to change the world.
I was killing guys like you when I was 12.
Over what?
I don’t know, I was a kid.
Did you want me to change you?